Know That You Are Cursed

know that you are cursed

three entities

out of sync

it is never going to work

peace of mind, undying love, total freedom

it is none of the above

nonsense, chaos, and stability

know that you want them all

know that you are cursed

sins, they are yours

and all the right things, all the in between ones too

banging from the inside out- simultaneously

banging from the outside in

it is never going to —

pull the racing echoes off of each sticky membrane in that skull of yours

watch your heart soak in its sap,

watch it wrinkle,

watch it relish in desire

listen to the screams of your soul, then

they are piercing

muffle them, then

trap them in a bell jar and

watch the bitch shatter

reverberating off of each thin glass wall until

write now, write-

quickly

get it all down

know that you are cursed

with this unrequested gift

the inability to flat line

cursed to flow with the flicking spikes

no more heart here, no more mind

feel the feelings, know that you are alive

for better

and for all the fucking worse

know that you are alive now

write, now

so they know you are alive, too

so they know they are alive, too