Borderline
I pace back and forth trying to find the words
Talking to you feels like I'm speaking to a wall
Blank, nothingness glares back at me
Am I the problem or do you not understand
I try to explain the highs and the lows
You ask why I can't just change
“Fix yourself,” you say
How can I?
The highs are amazing
Spontaneous trips and late night endeavors
This is when I'm peak at getting things done
Everything around me just feels amazing and enhanced
The lows are almost too low to handle
In bed for days, unable to speak
My head fills up with sadness and rage
Sometimes I wonder, “what if?”
No one talks about the dependency
The need to have someone around to rely on
I call them a favorite person
But those around me see it as an obsession
I may be borderline now
This feeling might be forever
But maybe one day I'll find someone,
Who only makes me feel the highs